I didn't mean seeking help from my church. I'm Jewish and don't belong to a temple, as they are too expensive to join. I simply meant talking to G-d and trusting that He will help me.

VaneltinaVVV, I'm not sure what you mean by parenting myself. My issues aren't with needing someone to parent me, it's with needing more money so I can be financially independent.

My brother started drinking when he was 9 years old and was addicted when he was a teenager. Since he was adopted and we don't have his medical records, we just assume he was maybe born an addict or born with an addictive personality or other mental issues we don't know about (since he has a sociopathic personality and never had a conscience). He was also emotionally abused by my father, so I'm sure that was part of it as well.

The problems I had growing up with my brother drinking wasn't dealing with my brother, because I never talked to him, it was that my parents constantly rescued him and ignored me. My parents and brother are in the situation they're in because my parents refused to let him fall on his face and deal with his own consequences.