Hey everyone. Another thread got me thinking. I've always had really high standards when it comes to dating and romance. Throughout my teens I chased after girls who were way out of my league, and always got rejected as a result. I've always been a bigger guy, and was morbidly obese by 16, but I've always been exclusively attracted to skinnier girls. Maybe it's self-loathing or something, I dunno. But from a sexual standpoint bigger women simply disgust me. Don't get me wrong; I've known some very kind, smart and wonderful big women in my life, but I can never see them as potential love interests or partners.

I know it's shallow and reprehensible. I know I focus way too much on appearance when it comes to attraction. And I think it's pretty common these days with portrayals of women in the media, porn, etc. But I cannot change it. It's just the way I am. Now I'm resigned to being a virgin for life because I know that no one I'm interested in will return the feeling.

Is there some psychological term for sky-high standards? Or could it be a symptom of something else? A relationship or personality disorder? All I could find on Google is perfectionism but that doesn't seem quite right. And it doesn't really fit with depression or anxiety, I think, unless it's hatred and disgust for my own obesity.

I really hope this doesn't offend anyone; that's not my intention. I'm just wondering if this is just another part of my broken personality, or something more.