hi BocaBabe

Depression does take away a lot of our enthusiasm for life. But as has been said wanting to live again is a great place to start. Perhaps making a plan for doing just that would be best. Planning activities for the day so that the day would be full of them and making yourself actually do them would be the best way to go. As you have said you have the strength to make yourself do things and using it for this purpose would move things forward for you. You will still get some juice out of the things you used to do, and that should increase as you continue with the activities. Having a real purpose in life that is consuming such as a charitable cause, or reconnecting with something that fired you up in earlier times will give meaning and purpose to life for you. I hope and pray all of this will improve for you soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis