I havent worked for 6 yrs. i get about 725$/ mnth for disability. Fortunately my fiance has a good job with benefits so everything is covered.

I found i could hold a job better prior to dx but looking back wasnt the most reliable to a degree but i was assistant manager for 5 years in one job and manager for 6 years at another. Had a child in between.

After dx i had multiple jobs that i couldnt hold, went back to school, worked in that field got injured on job and my personal life was a mess.

I wish i could work and is a goal but whenever i think about it or talk about the reality of it i slip down and shut down and panic as i know im not ready.

I would like to work as i feel an emptiness a lack of sense of purpose useless every negative thing under the sun. Would working fix that? Idk.