I'm sure that'll be fun moving when you get all the technicalities sorted out. There's an awful lot of planning needs to go into moving cities. I thought about moving down to Cardiff last year & was amazed how much I had to research. In the end though it just wasn't feasible on many levels. I think I was hypomanic at the time thanks to my steroid inhaler, it seemed like a good idea at the time...


I've not given up smoking yet, I was trying but getting nowhere so decided just to wait a while before trying again.

Yes they are disturbing thoughts. I'm not a violent person, I've never been in a real fight in my life & avoid confrontation wherever possible. It just seems to be the case that when I get intensely paranoid thoughts where I think others are going to harm me, I start imagining how I would stop them...


I've been off meds for just over a month now I think, I would say this was an isolated incident & was mostly fuelled by obvious behaviour. I'm not really worried that it'll crop up again... it's not like the thoughts came because of some vague notion, the girls were definitely looking over my way.

In the back of my mind I guess it may have crossed my mind that they might have thought I looked interesting. The thing is I think I'm self-conscious & am inclined to think negatively when I see people looking. There was a time when I always took it as a good sign but not in the past few years. It's a cognitive thinking error really, assuming things or fearing the worst of situations.

I'm not really sure what I thought their motives were but I saw it as a personal affront. It just seemed to me there was no way they were doing it for good reasons & must have had some ulterior motive.