Yeah, I think part of it's because I'm not really happy about life in general- I'm also thinking this morning how I let my anxiety get the best of me when I was away from the job- I straight up avoided going out in my neighborhood (or anywhere really if I could)- so silly - thinking of how I ran into a friendly customer around the holidays by work saying how she baked brownies or something for us- I had thought of bringing in goodies for my (former) coworkers but didn't - part of the problem is the usual lack of confidence I have. Now I have confidence but still feel like a bad person for my past actions/lack thereof. They say actions speak louder than words- I've always adhered to that and so now I see my lack of action makes me an asshole- like even now I was thinking of going there to get groceries before leaving to work at my other job and now I'm having overwhelming anxiety and feel like I can't- it's so stupid I was doing so well for over a week and then starting last night it's like my anxiety is creeping back-