good afternoon,
I just sent an email to T describing my present mental state and pretty sure that I won't get a response any time soon. frustrating.

I have been smoke free for 36 days and if I thought smoking would ease my symptoms, i'd go back to it. '
I feel so numb and overwhelmed and like i'm just here to meet everyone else's needs. My parents need me to drive them to dr appts and run their errands. I'm a school nurse in a middle school, so you can guess what that looks like. Then I work long term care most weekends. I'm just plain tired. I go home by 4 and crash on my couch. no desire to do anything. I haven't showered in 3 days, because I just don't have the energy to do it.
I am taking my meds, but i still feel lost and numb.

sorry for the whinefest.