Sorry, I was trying to delete this- I basically had a long post detailing how I feel like there's two personalities trapped in the same body at times. I used to think these differences of personalities were due to being intoxicated back when I was using drugs and smoking pot and drinking a lot- but over the past several years since sobering up I've thought otherwise and think perhaps I've always been this way when I think about when I was growing up . . . . maybe I'll talk about it more when I feel more comfortable.