Thanks for sharing! I too have done the deletion process a few times- dot dot dot.

It is hard to open oneselves up...exposing ones inner self...thinking that they will be judged or ridiculed....but we came here for a reason, seeking some kind of validation and comfort for like minded folks.

I found just opening up and throwing it out there begins the healing and understanding of ones self. It took getting a little used too and was scary at first...but I now can't stop! I can understand your hesitation, and maybe hanging out reading may help give you the want to. We are all nice people on here.

We pretty much compare notes and share....we can't diagnose. I just look for the similarities and differences to validate something I've long suspected, and tips for managing this condition.

I knew I was a multiple long before I started using at 15...it's pretty much the reason I did start using (everything)...the prolonged years of abuse...the addiction gene...bipolar...as you can see, the cards were stacked against me...that's my life.

Hope to hear some of your story soon.