I do not know about you and your relationship with your pdoc, but almost all would already have you under "watch", several years ago the confession of my s feelings had the pdoc convince me to sign myself in for observation and medication monitoring.
I find it rather odd that a mental health professional would so readily dismiss you or not take your feelings seriously.
Perhaps, if possible, seek another pdoc.
Meanwhile keep that what you said in your heart and mind that you are a "suvivor", that is what you said, right?

Take care,
DE