I think I ran with a different crowd in high school (the rebellious ones who threw caution to the wind, and the free spirits, etc). This probably shaped what is happening with the whole situation today (like I'm not already married with 3 kids). Most of my friends have settled down and are married or in committed relationships. Many have children as well...

Maybe I'll end up becoming an old shrew, a spinster type, or cat lady... And funny thing is that I'm completely fine with that right now. No commitments and no heartache. It is relationship suicide in a way, and I'm not getting any younger. The fish in the sea are getting fewer and farther between. But I can't make myself do something that I don't want to do (even if it is because of pent up anger and heartbreak). I'm maybe not the best fit for marriage. Honestly, would probably make a better mistress so long as he helped take care of a few financial things with me. Leave the real romantic stuff to the wife, you know?