Hang in there sweetheart This too shall pass. It migth be hard for you to see through all the hardships rigth now, but it will get better. Life has a lot to offer, you are young and have a lot of wonderful things waiting in your future. But rigth now you need to take care of yourself. Try to get enough to eat, enough to drink (not alcohol!!!), and take your meds. Your parents must be in complete denial about your illness, and the messages you are getting at home are toxic. So I think you made a really good decition by going to stay with a friend. Going inpatient migth be a good idea, if that is possible. I hope your stay with your friend will give you a little peace of mind rigth now