no because shell put me in inpatient.

when they put you in hospital - at least me - they put me on strong meds and it shocks my body into this abnormal state of being drugged up. ive been hospitalized 20 times so i know how my experience is going to be.
the hospitals are subpar here.

i try hard to better my surroundings. i isolated myself from my mom a bit and i felt better. i talked to my sister yesterday i felt better. im taking vitamins and trying to eat right. i take less meds so i can be more active and not so tired all the time. i doing school and thats another reason i cant be hospitalized or i miss assignments and miss class. the hospitals here dont care what your doing in your life. they just stabilize you and i am stablized. im just having hiccups of this or that like anxiety and every once and awhile depression or psyhosis. which ill always have. otherwise i might as well be institutionalized for the rest of my life and hold this fear of the outside world. im trying hard to psych myself up for moving or driving to school in the future. im taking my dad to get wellness checkups soon so i dont worry about him.

my mind is just like idk add or adhd or something. if im not challenged im bored. i get bored easy and lonely even easier.