oh well.
What can I say, when you canceled I felt horrible. Now I feel.. free. I dreaded this goodbye so I kind of feel relieved as last week's didn't feel like the LAST session - and there's not going to be (a last?) one any time soon. Plain and almost painless. I know it's crazy cause I had SO much to say but now strangely, not having had a last session and not waiting for one makes me feel more relieved than broken.
I wish you well T, and i fear this peace will soon make space to despair, but I also wish myself that next time I see you I'll think "ah, she is so nice and I'm grateful, but I just don't need her anymore". That would be the greatest gift for me.