I had SM as a child but I don't think there was a name for it back then. I thought I was the only one in the world with this.

I am in my 40's now and still have problems. I have depression, anxiety, very low self esteem and it seems to be getting worse. I don't have any support in my life and hardly any friends.

The only person I ever told that I had SM was my ex husband who just made fun of me and acted like I am some kind of psychopath.

I can see why I had it based on my parents and how they act and are. They were very controlling and told me I could do nothing and that everything was bad. I was very bored as a child and didn't have many friends.