So I've have been angry and over reactive, and have "caffeine" in my vains, and my leg won't stop shaking. I'm mostly okay but T says I'm up but this isn't UP for me. He even asked if my meds were working. Seriously if this is up then yeah not even close to my ups.

He's glad I'm asking for a nutritionist and wants me to stop all caffeine. He's concerned about me hurting myself. I'm not I don't think I will. How do I rid him of his concerns? My husband isn't concerned if my t is easily concerned then if I am going UP he'll hospitilize me! I don't want to be hospitalized! How do I fix this? He also wants me back on 150 effector to calm my anxiety . Isn't that bad if I am going up? I'm tempted to try to go up to 'show' him. Imagine how he would act/think if he knew I was smoking again.