So I had gained like 30 lbs on my bipolar meds. I begged my PDoc to decrease them and he wouldn't so I decreased them myself. so far i haven't had any mania or depression. i have lost 18 lbs. I feel bad for not being honest with him. i just feel like he doesn't get it. it is a big deal for a person to feel unattractive because they have gotten fat. i am 50 years old. people were asking me if I am pregnant.