i saw my psychiatrist today. towards the end of it, i mentioned coming on these forums (not the specific one) and was talking about dissociation. she said something about how i probably couldn't relate to those with DID, and i said, actually, i can a lot of things, just not all. that led to a further conversation where i explained that years ago (and from as long as i could remember), i had heard and felt the others and they had their own names, ages, etc. but that i never 100% had a total take over from one. she went on to say that full blown DID where you lose time 100% is still very rare, and what i have are not alters but instead ego states.

in that case, for those who also have never 100% had a take over, do you still have the diagnosis of DID or is it basically the same MINUS that one factor? i feel almost like it doesn't matter 'as much' without that except that it definitely can cause similar struggles/issues overall....but it is very confusing. i suppose that is why they have DDNOS, etc. depending on where you live.

i also was confused because i know years ago i told her about them. i asked if it's possible they could just have integrated. she said anything is possible. i am kind of unsure at this point what it all even means....it's so confusing. does it mean it doesn't exist or something?