I do but at the same time, I need to learn that I can't go back. I could have been a lot of things but here I am, short of where I *wanted* to be. But, who knows? Life deals us all sorts of situations. Who is to say things wouldn't be different for the worse if I went on a different path? It's hard to accept, especially when family members and such continually remind us that we made "bad choices" and thus landed where we did. Of course, everyone else knows better, now don't they?

My mood and anger has caused me to implode off and on since I was around 21 - I could have been a doctor but bailed on my degree. Then I torpedoed a promising 20 year business career and floated around for a while, trying to "find my way". I landed safely and have been in my current job for over 10 years.

I take BP as a blessing - I'm blessed with knowing my direction and what I need to do going forward. I've discovered so much about myself without even knowing it. The blessing is in the peace of mind. Life still is promising - hopefully, every day is a new beginning.