Last week my dog died and yesterday my grandmother passed away. I know I should be upset but I am hypomanic and feel great. It is confusing to be sort of grieving but so happy at the same time. My biology just won't let me grieve properly. A month ago I stopped Lithium and now I am trying to stop Olanzapine (ZYprexa) as the weight I have gained is still not coming off and it is starting to really bother me. Problem is this leaves me only on Prozac and Clonanzepam which may worsen the hypomania. I wish I could find stability without having to put on over 20kg (44 pounds). Being hypomanic right now is great though as I am happy and productive but not overly manic in a harmful way. Spending too much but reigning it in. My thoughts are all over the place though. Also managed to stop smoking pot and tobacco. Very motivated at the moment although a bit disorganised.