Broh, you are 18. None of us had any kind of lives that amounted to anything when we were 18, ok?

The kind of people that were already amounting to something when they were 18 are now giving seminars on how they became billionairs. And most of them didn't even know they were on the path to becoming billionairs because really all they were doing was pursuing some mad obsession that either leaves you homeless and deprived or a billionair.

So take a load off. You don't want to be bathing in accomplishment at 18 years of age cause that's really no kind of life.

You're supposed to be growing into who you'll be, making countless mistakes and trying your utmost best figuring out your place in the world. I guess that's what you're doing, and that's fine. You shouldn't be worried that you haven't found it yet.

School is just school, it doesn't really matter all that much, and it doesn't really affect how the rest of your life is going to turn out.

One thing about school though, and especially about the overpriced framed rag you'll be getting after you finish it...

If you don't know what you're going to be doing with your career, you might as well make sure you have an "easy time" while you're figuring it out. And what that means is, try to find some kind of profession that pays reasonably well, will give you at least SOME satisfaction and wont leave you utterly knackered at the end of each shift.

You do NOT want to spend the next ten years of your life trying to figure out what you want while flipping burgers and answering to douche bag third rate managers that you'd just as soon drown in their own goo than say hello to.

And please dear god do not try to find meaning by attaching yourself to some broken down girl hoping she'll bring meaning to your life. Really take it from me, that's the road to hell right there.

I understand the situation you are in, the loneliness and insecurity of it all, but just remember; the only way you can make that sad lonely place worse, is by adding people to it who will MAKE things worse.

So my advice to you is simply this... find something you like and just do that. If there's no money in it then either invent a market or turn it into a hobby until a market presents itself. Friends will come as soon as you have something to offer.

People are value seekers, they seek out people who can "do" something for them, who can improve their own lives in some small way. This is you, or at least the developed version of you.