that right there is the gem in all of this... just acknowledge that u had an episode, exactly the way u acknowledged it, and move on to learn from it...

the key is acknowledging, not glorifying, ie turning it into "oh im bipolar, so this is just another phase of mine", which gives it power over u, because that normalizes the behavior and gives it a sort of subconscious mental "shrug" implicating that "i did this, and its okay"... so we go on doing the same things over and over, and always question "why did i do this again???"

simply acknowledging (awareness) goes one of two ways, "i did this, and its okay" or "i did this, and its not okay"... keeping an open mind that its something that was conditioned --- beacuse it is conditioning, since it progressively gets worse thru time, because our minds become wired the more we react that way, just like how memories and reflexes are formed...

yes, i completely empathize on this, because i went through it and got myself in trouble more times than necessary... i still have my troubles, just like the next person, and the person next to that person that doesnt have bipolar... but the more i learn about my problems, the more potential control i have that i can work with... so far, ive been able to spot the start of my mania, and keep myself as grounded as i can... ive lost control sometimes, but none of that matters...

just because i lost control back then, that doesnt define what i will do next... i crawled on my legs once, does that mean im going to crawl again and forever?...

the past is an image, but not necessarily an image of the present... the present always has the potential to be everything else...