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Originally Posted by ValentinaVVV
I didn't mean punishing masochism in a BDSM way. I meant it the way you interpreted it to mean. I meant you self-punish because you feel you need to be hurt.
Like you are a bad person.
And ^ I am not what I call an empath. Although I can read people pretty well. And I can place myself in their shoes. I think it is because I am bipolar and have felt a lot of different moods.
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Okay, gotcha.
Similar here, can't read people, but can imagine myself in their shoes. That's another reason why some kinds of prejudice or lack of compassion or insensitivity make no sense to me; it's easy to imagine myself in that person's situation.
Who wants to speculate where this guilt comes from, because that's what bothers me. Most likely possibility right now is that it has to do with this perception that my negative feelings are baseless, that I have no "right" to have them, because I've never really suffered. Not in any serious way; my only "trauma" is that a parent died when I was little, but that didn't affect me much, and my relationship with my surviving parent has been declining ever since. But surely that's not enough to justify as awful as I feel at times?