I haven't felt this bad in a long time. I just want to leave work and go home, get in bed and stay there.

I can barely even type. I've been decreasing my meds slowly for weeks now so I don't think it is that.

I just feel like everything is a mess with me. My marriage is declining fast on my end of things, my family needs to be out of my life, I'm not passing my exams for the certification I need...and I allowed someone destructive back into my life...

I can't even face T on Wednesday. I was so happy last week and now the reality of everything is hitting me.

What I mean is this time last year, I felt the same way about all of the above. Nothing has changed at all except I got rid of a bad job and now have a better one.

I thought I was making so much progress. I'm not making any it seems to me right now.

I'm wasting his time and mine...