Ugh, this is something that will forever irritate me about therapy. I'm a thinker. I think/write better than I speak. So therapy is like pulling teeth for me sometimes because of course it never goes like I try to plan out beforehand. Some days the conversation flows smoothly, but it's not the norm for sure. My T is pretty good at coming up with something to talk about when I'm silent, but a lot of the time he just stares at me and waits. If it's obvious I'm thinking, he'll ask what I'm thinking about, but I usually just flounder with my thoughts. And the worst: "I'm asking you to explore [insert issue or emotion here]" when I say I don't know. I don't explore things on the spot. My mind literally goes blank and there's MORE awkward silence. Or there's times like this past week when I'm so angsty I'm just wrapped up in my thoughts and kinda forget I'm in a therapy session. Pretty sure that was frustrating for him...He kept trying to get me to talk before he just started spouting random small talk questions. Just let me angst, man.