Well, my first sexual experiences taught me that I was going to be judged by how I can't orgasm like I'm supposed to (and how everyone else can) and that I'll be forced to do things I don't want to do.

So, I can only orgasm through masturbation. With or without my partner present. But not if he's touching me you know where.

And don't get me started on intercourse…my first experience with that sort of set me up to be hopeless in ever enjoying it…it's just panicked, rushed, and over before I can relax, if it ever begins.

But after all of that, at least I can say I'm not a virgin anymore, so there's that!