I knew it was just that.
I wanted to believe it was anxiety disorder and depression. I knew different. I didn't want to accept my 12 year old would go through his young life feeling as badly as I do so often.

I'm having a really hard time. I can sleep I'm having trouble sitting still. I feel a heavy depression setting in but I feel I can no longer have an off day, I need to be there for him.

He doesn't seem too bad. Is it possible we. Aught it early enough and he won't need 5 meds and months or years of triple and error and loose what little I have left of my happy boy. I look at pictures of him from 5 months ago and it doesn't even look like him he is so sad.

I'm so sad I don't feel well