I arrived after 2 days of driving with my BF to absolute paradise. However weary tired and very hormonal. I was very much triggered in hindsight which makes me think this was more related to Borderline- or bi polar or pms or all....?
After settling in and being very hungry, go to dinner. I let BF choose and got ready. In my mind had some expectation I guess. I was taking long to get ready I thought for a cool beachy bar/restr.. Plus I wanted to treat!
So.. We arrive, I hate the place already from location. Bf just wants a meal as we're crazy hungry. They have a wait. Ok... (I hate the place too casual and was complaining). The guy at bar suggests have a cocktail. Relax. I told BF let's sit and he didn't realize I wanted a drink. I tell him I hate it here. He snaps and says we're leaving.
Oh boy.
Things get from bad to worse now. Yelling and acting crazy and we're both taking turns yelling. I get out the car almost while still in motion and scream at the TOP of my lungs like a LUNATIC and everyone playing mini golf turn around. I was mortified (still am). I proceed to break my rear view mirror off the window. That shook me enough to calm my **** down. BF too now he realized this escalated way the **** too far.
I'm not only upset but feel like just jumping in ocean and never coming out.
Fast forward we do manage to salvage the night and forgive eachother. I feel sickened and asked if we can not talk about it anymore bc aside from that we are both so happy and deserve this really nice expensive vaca much of which he is treating me too.