I consider myself transgender mtf....but being a part in a multiple system kinds of takes away from the wholeness of it, I guess. The male parts feel at home whereas I feel trapped....stuck, so do my sisters. It's so complicated. If it was just me I'd fix all this. At least they let me get to wear "clear" nail polish (no color) , shave the arms and legs, and get to present around the house...sometimes dress up. Sometimes I or another gets to go shopping, but still have to wear the body's clothes.

I don't know if this is anything like y'all go through on a singular level. In my readings though, it's like a transgender lives 2 lives, the inner and the outer. I know how that feels, but so not able to do much about it.

I just need a hug, I guess... Thanks for letting me share.