My entire teenage and adult life now has been a roller-coaster of trying to find the right medicines. I feel like sometimes it is causing me even more despair than actually doing any good. There's no stability at all. There have only been a couple of times I have not been on some kind of antidepressant, and I felt pretty bad. But looking back I wonder if that was just a temporary feeling.

I wonder though if somehow this constant change in medicines are just making everything worse. What if that's the cause of all my horrible mood swings? Switching so often can't be good.

Have you ever had a time where not being on medicine was actually better for you? Or did you try to quit on your own and things ended up worse? How did you go about getting to that point?