It is a really bad day. I am still taking the oxycodone with no relief. I am such a failure and so tried of living. I am so done with life. There is no help out there for me. I can't go inpatient because I do not fit the criteria, there are no therapists that will see me what good it would do at this point. I am done with therapy. It has been and still is a joke. I have absolutely no motivation to try so it would be utterly useless. You have to be motivated and want to do it or it is ineffective on both parts. I am done. done done