almedafan, I'm sorry you are feeling bad. (((hugs)))

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I've been decreasing my meds slowly for weeks

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Are you trying to go off of them? Could decreased doses be contributing to making you feel bad?

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My marriage is declining fast on my end of things, my family needs to be out of my life

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By family, do you mean your husband and child? Or your brother/mother/father? I think it is a good sign that you can perceive a decline. That can be a first step to taking positive action to make things better. Much better than head in the sand, "everything's fine" attitude (which I tend to do).

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I allowed someone destructive back into my life

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Can you reverse this?

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What I mean is this time last year, I felt the same way about all of the above. Nothing has changed at all except I got rid of a bad job and now have a better one.

I thought I was making so much progress. I'm not making any it seems to me right now.

I'm wasting his time and mine...

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Is this really true, almedafan? Could it be some black/white thinking creeping in? Progress can be measured in many ways. It seems to me you've been reaching out to your brother (including him in therapy) and mother. Maybe those efforts haven't led in the direction you had hoped, but we can't know unless we try things. And now maybe you will know to try a new direction. That's progress. And having a better job is progress too. Does your T think you are wasting his time? Does your T think you are making no progress? These are great questions to discuss with him. I think you will feel better when you see him on Wednesday.