I too want to drink to get lost....or to just not feel anything....my doc has me on
Lamictal 25 mg
neurotion 600 mg
prozac 80 mg
topamax 200 mg

hope this helps....
my T says that it is because since I am bipolar I want to disconnect from the feelings because it is what I have learned to do over the years to deal with the rush of emotions instead of actually feeling the feelings and getting caught up in them. Except when I get in a depressed or manic episode.