I can't remember a time where I was actually content with my mental health. Right now I'm furious. Thoughts and a great deal of anger in me. My bf is driving me crazy. He says I have an attitude right now. No a*shole I just want to stuff you in the trunk of my car right now! I can't find anything to help with this anger! I got sober (from alcohol) back in May while at the same time, dropping all my meds because I thought I was aaallll better now! Well I woke up a wk ago with the intent to really f*cking hurt someone. Due to crap insurance, I had to go to 4 different dr's trying to get back on my meds but they wanted me to go to my psych dr. Well it takes forever to get in there. I called, I begged, I got in. He put me on Wellbutrin SR 200 mgs in AM, buspar 45mgs in two seperate doses, risperdal 4mgs (Was on risperdal in the past and it worked well). Ok so this was like 6 days ago and I've stopped crying, but I still want to light my animals on fire. Ok not REALLY. So today I decided to rummage through my old meds and took 100mg seroquel hoping to calms me down(I've been taking these 2 antipsychotics together, risperdal and seroquel in the past with good results). Well, It made me *** out and wake up still pissed off. wtf am I doing wrong here? Am I not being patient enough? I just might take my night meds and call this a day! Sorry for the long vent! But I'm going crazy here.

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