Well I've had ect and it changed my life tremendously. I wouldn't be alive without it and I don't regret it one bit. There's always people who hated it but there's also people like me.

As for meds, I was able to go med free for about six years (after ect btw). I still had episodes but they were mild. And this last round of ect has changed me too. I haven't had s major episode in almost a year. Of course I'm still on meds this time. But I don't get any side effects so I don't care.

If you rely feel like meds are causing you trouble, only thing to do is wean off and start fresh. See what happens. You may get much worse but it may be better for you. But whatever you do, do it under pdoc supervision.