So I am considering some major changes right now. I've been off sick from work since the end of June, my current sick note runs out in a week. In the month that I have been out of hospital I have been trying to rethink my life plans. I know the way that I am living right now just isn't working for me. I have wanted to leave my job for at least the last 2 years but have felt tied in due to them paying for me to study.

In the last year though I have had about 5 months off sick altogether, maybe more. I signed up to the last level of my course this time last year, in that time I have managed to sit one exam out of six... I just don't see me finishing at this rate, it's stressing me out a bit too much.

I have been pretty directionless since I left school, and have just fell into jobs that other people have managed to get for me. I've just had no clue what I actually want to do.

Two of my best school friends decided yesterday that they wanted to help me sort my life out. We came up with a lot of ideas, it left me feeling pretty anxious about the whole thing, I'm not a forward thinker normally, I just tend to go with the flow, but now I have some kind of plan.

Today I decided I will quit my current job. They have been very supportive over the last 5 years, but it is a chapter I need to close. My manager is my ex's dad, we broke up over a year ago and I think I just need to cut all ties and try to start afresh where no one knows me or my history.

So my plan is to quit my job, look for something in retail, consider something I could study at college that I'm actually interested in and at some point do some travelling in Australia!

The whole thing is terrifying me, but I'm hoping that in time this will work out for the best and I can actually start to live and enjoy my life... fingers crossed anyway.