So, I don’t really know where to start this, but I’ve been dealing with depression and social anxiety for years now and I’m only getting worse. I feel extremely uncomfortable in almost every social situation and this has led me to isolate myself. I’m only 17 and am still in high school, which is basically torture for a person like me. I was bullied in middle school and have always been rejected by the majority of my peers. I usually just wallow in my sadness, but recently things have changed. Along with my depressive thoughts I have started to experience extreme amounts of anger and hate. Every time I go to school I see all of the other people who seem to be perfectly fine and recently its been pissing me off. I constantly think of the people who have rejected me or taken advantage of my kindness, and I want them to pay in some way. These feelings have made me hate my peers as I grow angrier at the unfairness of it all. Why should others get to have perfectly normal lives, while I am afraid to go out in public? And yes, I’m aware that everyone has their problems, but I’ve heard that said so many times before and I guess I’m just sick of hearing it. I don’t know what I expect to get from posting this, I just wanted to voice (or type) my thoughts. I just don’t understand, I’ve been really nice to the majority of people I’ve come across and they either take advantage of me or reject me. I don’t even want to be accepted by people anymore. I just want to be happy any way possible I don’t care anymore.