No I didn't mean we were happy as clams after the drama.... I meant that 90% of the time things are amazingly blissful, lovely and a great relationship.. I am to blame mostly for the fallouts. This is after we both lost our cool. Therapy confirms this is a much better, safer place for me. He has been by my side, promoting therapy, books etc for well being. I pushed. I didn't even describe what a nut I was.,... He admitted: yes he should have been more calm and typically he is. If anything- he has been my rock since my dx. Yes I can see how it seems dysfunctional, but that's not what it is. My last RL was MUCH worse. I am not well and reaching out.