Ohhhh, I've been there, Sister Silver Springs. First of all *enjoy* your vacation. You deserve it.

I used to be the same way in public with my wife, always looking for "move forward" from where I was at the time, never living in the moment. I don't like crowds, I don't like waiting, and I'm not good at adjusting when things don't work out the way I planned. Or, as you suggested, sometimes things just don't feel right and it eats us up to a point at which we go bonkers. I'm a big believer in feng shui and being comfortable in my surroundings.

And then of course, if the mojo isn't there, things would escalate for me way beyond where they should have gone. I've broken some stuff too......one time, I ripped my watchband and my watch right off my wrist, I was so angry.

But, that's BP in a nutshell, now isn't it? We all look for some sort of plan that gives us certainty. My advice - I've tried to go with it and let it all happen around me. Just move on from last night and learn from it. Tonight, pick *your* spot by the beach, let the breeze float by, look at the stars, and take everything in that we miss when life is too busy. My dad would always say "now this is living".