Finally the day of the appointment has come. In less then 2 hours we will be in Catherine's office. When I talked to her yesterday she told me I don't have to do this, I can back out if I want to. Part of me wants to turn around and run but a larger stronger part of me is so sick of having to deal with the same issues over and over and being triggered again and again and never having the anger truely resolved. The strong part is going to get me into the the office. The weaker part has already cut my body a couple of times today. I feel all dizzy and sick. If I close my eyes my body wavers. I want to say that I am scared but this feeling isn't quite that. My face is slightly numb. I guess the feeling is tense? Right? You can be very tense about something but not be scared right?
Carrie