Do you ever feel like your trauma or your symptoms aren't bad enough for you to have PTSD? Despite being in therapy for quite a few years and being told I have chronic anxiety that never seems to go away, I've always asked myself if I'm making a big deal put of nothing. I tell myself that the sexual assault wasn't that bad because it was only digital penetration. That the other times were just undressing, he didn't molest me much. Locking me up wasn't abusive because it didn't leave any bruises and it wasn't for a long period of time. I just can't accept that I have PTSD because I feel like that means accepting that what happened in my childhood was actually really bad.

I'm quite high functioning and though I have no friends and I can't cope with being in most social situations, I have managed to hold down a job and get along quite well with my colleagues. It's why I often feel like my symptoms aren't bad enough for me to really have PTSD.