Hi Breezy,

I saw that this post is a little old and I didn't want you to feel ignored. There have been posts on here sometimes that haven't produced the response that I was hoping for, so I didn't want that kind of thing to happen to you.

I just wanted to say that I understand the point about "shyness" and having trouble making/keeping friends. I never really talked to other kids when I was a child, so I have had (and still have) trouble relating to people. I much prefer browsing the internet by myself than going out anywhere, even to a neutral place like the supermarket. You are not alone in your ideas about the relationships between men and women either.

I am in a place of relative peace now though. I have been trudging through the stuff for a few years now, and have found something that I like to do. I spent all of my free time making mistakes and getting better, and found that people come to me for advice on this subject now. Even though I don't keep up with these people personally, it is nice to have a place in society professionally. And I found that I like to be alone, and don't even want too much contact other than that.

Just wanted to say that you aren't alone. I might be overstepping, but I found this quote yesterday that really resonated with me. I am not trying to suggest anything, but maybe this will help somehow.

"Searching for your passion is not ‘proactive;’ it’s actually quite passive, because embedded in the pursuit is the erroneous belief that when seen it will be immediately recognized. The reality is that a life-long passion is most often revealed through working passionately on something you have immediate access to." -Kent Healy

Take care.