I agree with PoohBah.

Being depressed rob you of your decision making. And this goes along with Anger. You can't control yourself most of the time and the only moment you realize you had acted is hours later, when you regret it and then you act again when this sense of unlving return and the cycle continues.

Try the snap club. I'm trying since yesterday and allowed me to do a little more with my day yesterday. It will be a little increase in control and a sense of well-being, but even the smallest things help enormously.

Sorry, I forgot another thing. I use the sylva method to manage my anxiety and panic attacks and I think it would help you. The way I use it is:

a) Close your eyes.

b) Imagine a green board.

c) Count from 100 to 0, drawing each number in red and breathing deeply.

d) While inhaling and exhaling, say this: I'm calm, relaxed and in complete health.

For me, it allows me mind to calmd down little by little and find my center. With time, you can shrink the number until you can do it from 10 to 0, but I have never done this. I like using the 100 to 0. But that's me.

Hope It helps.