Hi ScientiaOmnisEst

Having read what she said. I don't believe a word of this. Nobody who ever had depression could simply be this good. It doesn't fit. I think it is an entirely made up story.

But you are not garbage. Like everyone else on the planet. You are good at most things and not so good at a few which makes you just as worthy. We have to go on because doing otherwise would definitely ruin the lives of our loved ones and you don't want to do that. Perhaps you could get the medication strengthened and good therapy to give you the skills to manage symptoms.
Just try keeping your mind busy doing especially enjoyable things. And setting small, easy to achieve goals will give you the feeling that things are coming under control and build confidence.

I can understand that things are difficult on welfare. But there are food banks, and that would help to stretch income. And thrift shops do that. also. Take care. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis