what you are thinking is common. i have been there often myself. trauma isnt about the situation itself. i am trying to remember the exact definition, but it fails me. it is something like an event out of the ordinary that happens to a person and they dont know how to process it. that is why it is traumatizing. the trauma isnt necessarily that you were violated or locked up, it is the fact that you had no way, no tools to process the fact those things were happening to you. it was the way your brain functioned, not what was happening to your body. being high functioning myself, i find it an insult as well...lol. "im resilient, i should have been able to manage that! why am i so messed up?"