Thank you divine1966, I appreciate that. I had two job interviews recently, so hopefully something good will come from them.

For those who think I'm ignoring advice from this thread and not listening to my T, all I have to say is I know myself better than anyone and G-d knows me better than anyone. He has plans for my life and only He can help me, not a therapist. I am doing what I need to do in order to solve my money problems because, whether you agree or not, money IS the main issue that's causing all my other problems. All of my insecurities and issues with low self esteem are coming from not having enough money to take care of myself and having to rely on abusive people for help. Some of you can choose to disagree, and that's fine. You're not hurting me or upsetting me with what you say because I know what I need to do now. I need to pray more and talk to G-d more and follow what He wants me to do. Spending more money on a T who only wants to judge me and argue with me isn't a good way to spend my hard earned money or a good way to lessen the stress in my life.