My 40th b-day is coming up in September. Steve is still in the hospital, but started discussing some things we could do together with his family to celebrate. He said his Mom asked what I wanted/needed..etc...

I told him " I am NOT celebrating my b-day, or any other holiday until my kids are home!!!" He responded "And you wonder why people don't like you?" I explained that there is nothing worth celebrating without my children. This is the way I feel and I can't and/or won't stop feeling this way ever. Is this selfish of me? Both of my "parents " are deceased and I have no family except my kids. When and if the courts say they can come home, then I will celebrate with the best of them!!!

Until then....I remain as I am