Lady...It took me a very long time to reach the point you have described. That is not to say it isn't important to pursue one's dreams, but I was striving for approval, for praise, and trying to prove my own worth by my accomplishments. Finally reaching the point of not needing or caring for approval, I began creating from who I am, what truly interested me, rather than trying to find approval or accolades. It has been much more satisfying and successful on a personal level.
Love
Patty