So, i havent been on here in awhile. But these past couple weeks have been exasperating. I need some kind of help but im not sure what. Since i dont have a pdoc this is really my only option. For a little over a month i didnt have any episodes, then they started to come back. Few and far between at first. But now, its becoming an almost everyday thing. The 23rd was the worst. I literally have no memory of that day ever happening, but from what my wife tells me, i was isolating and hostile to anyone who tried talking to me. Today im more irritable than usual. I think alot of that has to do with racing thoughts. I feel like im loosing control again. Anyone have any suggestions on what i should do? Im just really confused right now.