Thanks for your input, everyone. I thought I would update you that he ended up breaking up with me yesterday. We had spent the day together at a fair, and we were both fairly guarded (moreso me). Our conversations just hadn't been working for the past week. From his point of view I wasn't adding enough to conversations, so they fell flat. From my point of view, he was the one doing this. When he dropped me off at my house he said he thought we should break up. He said that I seem so into him and that he doesn't want to string me along hoping he'll develop stronger feelings for me, and then hurt me even more. He said he didn't think we have enough in common and that I deserve better.
A part of me wanted to convince him to stay, but the other part of me knew it was right that it was ending. I want someone who is over the moon for me, as healing4me says. Nevertheless, I am crushed by the ending and feel so rejected. I don't understand why he was so ambivalent about me, but I liked him so much as a person. I know it wasn't a healthy relationship because I was constantly insecure and looking for proof that he liked me all the time, soaking up any affection he gave. But I still really miss him and it has been very hard not to contact him today. I've been crying on and off all day.
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